more of my nephew..

if you have forgotten, this is what my brothers first son looks like....



how do they not look at all alike? the new one looks so asian...well i have never seen a pic of him with his eyes open yet, so who knows what he really looks like,..plus he's still a newborn, and they never look like what they end up looking like yet. but still....crazy.

Snow!

It wasn't the first snow of the season, but it was definitely the first significant snowfall. they were the largest snowflakes i have every seen. in almost 5 years of living in New York at 2 trips to Minnesota, never have i seen such huge snowflakes. the pictures do not do it justice, but they were huge. you can kinda tell from the snow on the red car in that one picture, but it was sooo beautiful. snowfall is one of the most beautifil sights ever.

above are my iPhone pictures, and below are more taken with a camera....

one more....

my second nephew (third if you include my brothers step son, kaleb). sad thing is, i have no idea when i will get to meet him....:(

big night(s)

rare week out for me. wednesday turned from an ebay night at nima's too a drunk all nighter which ended at beatrice. we were just going to do some ebaying at nima's then his friend texted him that she was djing at this new bar called Ella a few blocks from his place, so he, erin and i went over for a drink. it was a horrible crowd and the same music i heard out at every bar. we decided to leave and as we stepped outside, erin ran for a cab. i was like, let's go home, share a cab home, and she was like, NO we're going to beatrice. i kept saying "no, no, no, i'm going home, i really don't want to go to beatrice, i have to work tomorrow." but i was then forced into a cab and we headed off to the west village. i whined the whole way over, i imagine it was quite annoying. but then again, they were the ones forcing me to go out. anwyay, i ended up having a pretty good time (wasted). stayed til around 3am i think. dead tired the next day, yesterday. so last night i meet erin at work, and we grb a bite. i forced her to come with me to piano's for james's show at 9. but travis and jeff met up so she headed over to nima's. we watched the show and then met up at nima's. jade, erin and nima were there. then we headed over to the OC party on rivington. after a little drama at the door (door guy not believing jade's hawaii ID was real) we got in and started drinking. it was packed, but a really good time. a drink and a few shots got me going. we stayed there til like 2 then went to LIT, no idea why. we were probably there for under and hour and then walked over to the L train. decided on a slice at artichoke, rather than food at kellogg's. we waited for train for almost a half and hour, and only went to bedford. i had to walk home, in the cold rain. being drunk helped me handle it, or course. i crashed out around 4:30. i had no day today, because for the first time in my life, i slept in until almost 4!!!! it was dark and rainy all day so i had no idea what time it was. i thought it was 9 in the morning when i got up and check my phone. iw as so disoriented and didn't believe my clock, phone or watch for a while...i could not believe it. it seemed impossible that a person could sleep in that late. but, honestly it looked like night at 345 in the afternoon. i freaked out because you i was supposed to cut my friend shanna's hair at 3. so i texted her and scheduled for 6. so that's all i did today. cut her hair, hung out a bit and then came straight home. i can't get over the 3:45 wake up, it's just insane.

i'm back..

my last post was so shitty, sorry. i was just in a horrible mood and totally stressed out. i am good now, i feel a lot better. i took time to think about things, talk to friends and my sister, sorted a lot of shit out in my head and my heart. i was feeling so weak, sorry for myself, and that's just not me. it never has and i hope never will. i mean i have my moments, but i feel like if i just take time to breathe and think things over, i can find a solution. not to say that if i were too fall, it wouldn't be hard, i just know now that i have the power to change, i don't always have to be secondary, i can be first sometimes. sorry to be so vague, but these are my feelings, just about life in general. it has been a while since i really looked at myself and my life and the people around me, to realize where i am, who i am and who my real friends are. some are many, many miles away from me, but the bond is so strong that through the distance, we still remain as close as ever, if not closer. As the holiday season is arriving, i really want to make it a point to let the people who really matter to me know how much i appreciate them. even friends who i haven't seen in years, or spoken to in months, i still cherish their friendships because i know that even though we haven't been in contact for a while, when we do see each other or talk again, it will be like we never left. pick right back up where we left off, just a lot more life experiences in between. i actually feel that since i have left hawaii, my friendships with people back home have grown stronger, though i have been away. distance makes you try harder to keep the relationship going, and keep it strong. and you feel inclined to express your feelings more than if you were able to hang out every day. this holiday season i really just want to stay positive about life, about people and try not to hate or be negative. you know how hard that is for me, cause i am so whatevs about shit, but hahaha, it's worth a try. everyone deserves to be happy, right?

anyway, thanks to all of you that are always here for me, who make me laugh and keep me strong. i love you all!!

stressed....

this sucks.

art, art, art!!

I am so excited for this show! A couple buddies of mine, Suzette Lee and Tim Diet, will be showing off their talents at the Puffin Room Gallery on January 17th, 6-9 pm. Along with many other artists: sculptors, painters, photographers, etc. Should be an amazing display of art and creativity. Come one, come all!!!

current mood:

whatevs.